trying to keep a positive attitude

let's see, i was thinking this evening of all the places i have lived:

hillsboro
salem (2 houses)
keizer
gresham
camas
tacoma (6 different places)
washington, DC (2 different places)
windhoek
berlin (2 different places)
bochum
denver (2 different places)
pretoria
des moines

when you've been around as much as i have, you appreciate the positives and negatives of every place. but you also learn to absolutely love some places and recognize that some cities just plain suck. iowa is neither of those, but it is starting to feel a little on the low end.

it is thus coming time for the second attitude adjustment of the summer. i've gotten a bit off track with the >>relax, reflect, revamp, reorganize<< mission. and that is bad. i need to get on board again, and yes, focus on the real opportunity that this actually is. crap just has been happening this past week that have made it difficult to recognize that or easy to forgot, like people putting you down, household stress, migraines (a great way to spend a day off), and random crappy things (like getting a flat tire at 11 o'clock at night).

i am kind of one of those "i control my world" people and that part of me says i should blow it off, suck it up, and get back on track. c'est la f-ing vie, right? but the other parts of me are frustrated and often ask "why me? haven't i 'learned enough' lessons in the past year? why does crap happen like this?"

i want to wake up tomorrow and be on track again.